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May 4, 2025
I really wish I had someone to talk to. Someone who would just listen and understand. Not a paid counselor or therapist, just a friend. Something's not right with me lately. I take the pills and put in the effort, but something is off. Not sure if it's the loneliness finally beating me or what.&h...
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