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• Finally

  November 29, 2024

  Dear <bos>, Please accept this as my formal resignation. Thank you for the opportunities. Best, <me> ... Send! It feels SOOO GOD DAMN GOOOOD, walking away. The horizon ahead is mine, and for the first time in forever, the air tastes electric again.

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• BENNETT

  November 1, 2024

  Vois sur ton chemin (Techno Mix), on super top volume. Repeat. Friday night late. Stimming like my life depends on it. This is MY space, no interference. It’s a loop, a controlled substance that feels like freedom, and maybe a little, like escape... Am I just feeling irritation, or is it contempt...

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• Something Strange

  September 5, 2024

  Today, on my way home, I was on the train, listening to an audiobook, Way Back by Sara Cox. It’s an easy, no-frills read, the kind that doesn’t demand much focus. No complicated plots or endless names to remember, perfect for my neurodivergent brain. Just smooth sailing, enjoying something simple...

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• Friends

  August 23, 2024

  Tonight, we had our neighbors over for dinner. They brought their little baby, who's 8 months old now, so they couldn’t stay too late. But honestly, it didn’t matter. Just having them around and enjoying their company made the evening special. They're such kind people. A bookmark in the story of ...

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• Solice

  July 5, 2024

  Today was different. I woke up to the familiar hum of the city outside my window. No grand revelations, no nothing. Just everyday things. And it was enough. This morning, I found myself in the park, sitting on a bench beneath a tree. Its leaves whispered secrets of countless seasons. People walke...

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• Echoes of Absence

  June 21, 2024

  Every time I come here, it looks like a wasteland... Just no BEETHOVEN anywhere around...   no BEETHOVEN BEETHOVEN beethoven beethovn beethov ho ebt eeb ee e e   am i the only one ? why is it so much to ask for ?? cant we just give the damn mushrooms some fucking   BEETHOVEN  ???!!!!&he...

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• Moonlight sonata

  June 14, 2024

  This evening, I lay on the couch, listening to Beethoven’s Moonlight Sonata on my headphones, when God came down and touched me… And it felt so… incredibly good… so good so good   but as i turn to you, my beloved friend, and hold you by the shoulder, i cannot tell you. i cannot tell…

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• Where would you like to be in 5 years

  June 7, 2024

  Where would you like to be in 5 years from today? In five years, I hope to be here... And as I touch my face, my skin feels soft... The form and texture, I enjoy touching... Also, being touched, softly on my face, is surprisingly pleasant.... Before I continue, I just want to tell you.…

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• Placeholder

  April 26, 2024

  There is something I want to say, not now, not today... I just feel so far away, drifting of. The reoccurring memory of my youth, sun setting in the laboratory of my father, the afternoon sun reflecting of the flasks... Could my life have been better? I miss the life I had.

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