my thoughts are as volatile as alcohol
and so is my existence
the day I go under there wont even be
a ripple on the pond to remind you of me

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When Did We Stop Asking Why?

April 11, 2025
As kids, we dreamed of reshaping the world, our hearts filled with questions and defiance. But somewhere along the way, we grew older, quieter. Our minds tangled in the endless loop of narratives spoon-fed to us. Now, when I ask, "Why do you believe this?" or "Where’s the evidence?" I’m met with ...
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