#thinkingaboutlife

I have for a long time wondered whether I am autistic. I have always shown certain behaviours that could be indications of having some form of autism. Not liking physical contact, not being able to make friends, not liking busy places, wanting to avoid socially complicated situations, finding all...

I haven't written in a while. OD reminded me that I've upgraded to OD plus almost a year ago. I like it here and therefore I have directly renewed my subscription. I like it here and I should logically speaking spend more time here. It is difficult sometimes to do what you want to do.…

I once again am going to write this entry. I mean this kind of entry in which I describe making choices and the difficulty thereof. I have recently purchased a subscription for unlimited going to the movies in all arthouses in Amsterdam. However, this weekend I didn't go to see any one of them. T...

I went to see The Descendants today. Oscar nominated for best film and best actor. George Clooney again puts on a fantastic performance. He plays a man who's wife gets into an accident and is in a coma and dying. He finds out that she's been having an affair. He is rich and lives on…

I've just heard something on the radio that I feel compelled to comment on. BBC2 Sunday half hour. The presenter mentions the passing away of his brother and the many letters of condolence he got. One of these said that God doesn't take loved ones away without a reason, but that He does that to&h...

Both teams won today with 14-6. Our victory seemed easier than it was. One of our players won from a loossing position. One player made a draw with one piece less and one player could have lost with a forcing. I drawed agiainst one of their better players, although I did have to better position.&...

At times I can get very annoyed by the fact that people always repat themselves. At the draughts club I get to know people over time and they say things that they've said before. This is probably normal, but I don't like it. People should be more original and come up with knew ideas. I…

I feel like I'm being forced into acting out a certain socially accepted role in my life. I have to work, I have to live on my own, I have to dress in a certain way. I have to act in a certain way. Certain question require scripted answers. Most people get to know how…

I have found some structure in my daily activities. First alarm at 1 hour before I have to be at work. Second alarm at 1/2 an hour before I have to be at work. Then, get up, make sandwiches and got to work. Then from 9 till 5.30 or from 9.30 till 6 work. After…

The other day I felt like going for a walk. It was about 10 pm but in this time of year that's not a problem at all. It is still eerily light outside. Not something you should get used to too soon. The longest day is approaching. It is fascinating how the seasons change. Certain…