#separation

Keep in mind these are thoughts that race through my mind when I'm alone, its quiet and I'm in the shower - hence - "Shower Confessions". _______________________________________________    Facebook Post Idea: Someone convince me NOT to text the whore - I know I should let things go. But s...

Within 24 hours of your affair being exposed you "promised" me that you were 100% in it, that you were going to try and give 100% to our relationship. It was you that wanted to fix the relationship and stay together. It was you that wanted to stay together, forgive and "forget". It was you…

They say time heals all wounds.... but what is the time frame? I feel like I am slowly moving forward, I can't wrap my head around the fact that its already been a month; 30 days have passed. I feel like you - you think things are fine. I honestly have felt like the night…

One month since the affair was exposed. Until you are grieving you don't realize just how long a month can feel.  I felt like I endured a year within a 30-31 day time frame.  There were days when I didn't realize one had passed, sometimes the minutes turned into hours and I couldn't tell you…

One minute I love you. One minute I hate you. Is that what twenty years does or is that what narcissistic love does. Since the first day that your affair was exposed you have acted like it is water under the bridge, like cats out of the bag so we can move on. I can't…

Has there ever been a song that you can listen to and each time you hear it from a different perspective - or you can feel it from another standpoint than your own? Today YouTube was working its magic and played "Thinkin' Bout Me" by Morgan Wallen - only it was the lyrical version. I…

I find myself asking the question "Why" so often now.  Whether it is aloud, amidst silent sobs, or silently like a broken record controlling my thoughts.... That and "what the fuck" So many times I find myself coming here to type a few words, hit delete, type a few more, delete again - to walk&he...

Did you know there is science behind why we remember certain events? I first learned of this when I was watching "Someone Like You" (Ashley Judd: 2001).  She is meets with a plastic surgeon to discuss having her amygdala removed because she read that it controlled her olfactory sense to associate...

As I said I consider myself an OG Open Diary author - this is actually my 3rd online diary.  Publicly sharing has given me peace, a sense of community, and its my therapy.  My first diary was 2001 - and it ran up until 2009 (estimate), sadly I don't remember its name or the e-mail associated…