#selfloathing

I wake up scared, still wearing pants. My phone isn't charging...fuck, What did I do last night? My nightstand has an empty water bottle and a half full glass of...something. I hold the glass up to take a deep sip, it may as well be rubbing alcohol. I turn the living room light out and…

So, where to begin... I left the island 'paradise' of Diego Garcia back in August 7th, and this time it was for good. Another guy I worked with left at the same time and karma be damned we were driving to the terminal and kept saying things like, "Last time we're going to make this…

TRIGGER WARNING : This entry is full of graphic descriptions regarding Self Harm and Eating Disorders.     So...things have changed somewhat and I feel the need to do a whole big thing, like an op-ed to myself, and all of you about it. This academic year has been a complete mind-fuck; h...

I've been thinking that no matter how I'd rather not change anything due to discomfort, and on the flip side thinking about running away from it all because sometimes everything is just too much, there's some things I might have to sacrifice- whether it's the 'right thing' to do, or the scariest....