#selfharm

The past week has been a heck of emotions and anxious feelings, but today has been good. My oldest daughters 16 yr old friend is in foster care and has been running away from her carer, she's been skipping her cocktail of medications. After running away multiple times last night and self harming ...

fuck. i’m going to kill my self. i want to kill my self. no one likes me. everyone is just acting. pretending. fuck. i need to die. i want to die. please just let me fucking die. what the fuck am i gonna do. my girlfriend doesn’t like me. i just know it. it’s different.…

haven’t posted for awhile, thought i’d update. i self harmed yesterday, broke my three day streak. fuck that. i plan to do it again soon too. why do i even have i am sober? i cant wear short sleeves now, even tho i doesn’t show, even the slightest movement and boom! freak alert! i wore…

(TW!! GRAPHIC WORDS, IMAGERY, SH/ED) (i’m not crossing it out this time bc i don’t feel like it) i haven’t self harmed today. i’m proud? idk honestly. i didn’t go to school at all bc my stomach didn’t feel well. it’s not like anyone actually believed me, but they acted like they did. i take…

i feel like trash. i’m eating out with my friends and my leg where i recently cut is KILLING me. i did it fast this morning and didn’t have time for after care so i just slapped a bandaid on it. i’m an idiot. i excused myself to the restroom and took off the bandaid…

(TW: a lot of shit) fuck this i always get so scared to write out how i feel bc i think SOMEONE is watching me but idgaf anymore bc i need to get this out. i am a genderfluid lesbian (afab). and i hate everything. i got diagnosed with depression in august 2021. right when…

A few days ago...I had a rough day My work has been slow, and due to miscommunication, my boss thought I preferred days off over working so she kept calling me off work. I ended up only working a half day last week and was stressing out about money all week. She gives very unapproachable…

Most days, I feel nothing. I don’t feel anything and I am so bored. I am so bored of waking up and feeling nothing while everyone around me is drowning in a cascade of emotions. I try to fill the void, I buy things I like, I don’t like them, I hurt myself, it doesn’t…

I hate coming home. It’s a Friday evening - a beautiful evening - and I’m drinking. I’ve been scheduled in work all week next week, which I’m happy about. It’s an escape. I see friends. I forget. But for now, I’m drinking. I hate when I do this. It fucks up my running and that’s…

So, I started restricting again on May, 11th of this year. It started at first as a way to keep myself from self harming by cutting and overdosing. I knew those would eventually get me into trouble again and I didn’t want to take that risk. Sadly, I find it’s much easier to hide an…