#sad

I'm sorry. Im sorry I said that. You mean so much to me. You shouldn't be dragged down into my misery. I know you arent mad. and I know you wont hold it against me. But I want to make it up to you. You deserve better than to have me as your friend and…

...At least that's what it feels like. Everyone was ok with my presence till I turned eighteen. Born poor is really tough. I never, ever wanted to make my family feel pressured to provide me with education...so I chose the cheapest education I could get and I sacrificed my sleep to study and stud...

Today I laid on the bathroom floor. I pressed my cheek against the cold white tiles and listened to the muffled sounds of my dad and my brother fighting downstairs. And the time paused. It paused for a while and the whole time it was paused the muffles in my ear never went away. I’m…

I've been feeling that yearly empty feelings where everything is numb and not real. I'm getting more and more tired everyday but I'm trying to be better. I feel as if at 17 years old i need to know what to do with myself but i dont and its hard and I feel like I'm…

The quietness of madness, of sorrow, of otherness. How it spirits you away to a place of silent tears and roaring shame, terror of the future. Is it madness to fear what lies under my medication? To know what’s on the other side? To wonder from time to time? I just want to sob into…

I cannot maintain this account any longer. I need the cash. I will be on Prosebox as VelveteenRabbit. Sorry and goodbye!

I used to think your eyes were like flaming sunsets. Glistening like the comfort of a campfire. Like the flames, always full of misdirection. Or maybe it was just all in my imagination. Maybe it was your manipulation leading me on, like a predator leads its prey. I would've loved you still, if yo...

Today I realized that God could possibly be punishing me for that abortion I had, I'm mad with myself bc I feel alone as I did when I got it. At the time I just started my new job and got pregnant carelessly and was scared. I truly didn't get a chance to be happy…

i cried today.   Overwhelmed with my studies. Feeling like im not good enough no matter how hard i try while also staying optimistic, etc etc.  i decided to take it slow and bit by bit, get where i need to be. Failed an assignment, so i will work on it this Thursday. Made avoidable…

He left at 5am, I've been up ever sense. I kept myself as busy as I could today but even so I had moments of extreme sadness. Something as stupid as finding a claw clip of mine that he wears sent me to tears. So I shoved it in a drawer, got back up and…