#rant

I'm currently buzzing off of a teeny weeny airplane bottle of 100-proof rum. A store sold it to me by accident, and I quickly learned the difference, lol. It's very strong. Yes, I do drink from time to time. There's actually no verse that says we can't drink. The verse is against drunkenness. Mor...

It's rare that i feel clarity, my mind is always in some form of extreme emotion, as if I'm in constant fight or flight, I always feel intense anger within a split second, overwhelming sadness, stress and anxiety or just some form of extreme emotion. But right now, for the first time in years I&h...

The title may be misleading, I don't have the answer. I am just stumped and questioning myself, why am I trying so hard to survive when It's making me miserable. I sit here, looking for employment and I'm shocked how some, if not most starting wages are still at $7 to $8 dollars an hour.…

i try not to let little things get to me, but i must confess now that i am simply annoyed. my uncle came in the office and gave me a mean look as he walked away with one of the folders that had been sitting there for him to pick up. . . it's not…

After our semi-exciting drive on the Icy roads in the ghetto, we semi-drift into my sister’s HUD home. I look into his dreamy eyes and feel an extrinsic amount of love and admiration for him. I feel obsessed. I express to him how much I love him and he looks me dead in the eyes…

When you've fallen down that deep, cavernous, haunting darkness that seems to engulf your very being, keeping your eyes closed and waiting to see what happens seems so very enticing. Unfortunately, it's the only way I can explain what's it's like living my life for the past three years. Graduatin...

OH MY GOD!!!!! So I'm just trying to relax... it's my birthday.. it's bad enough I had to drive over to the VA and get a pre-dental covid test on my birthday... so I had to do a shorter 30 minute yoga exercise this morning... but I thought I was going to have a nice…

A quick rant: Why does Kurt, the most toxic of my personalities always makes my life a living hell?? Rant over. :) Just had to get that out there... if there is any one out there with Multiple Personality Disorder, can you shed some light? I think that's why my cheap shit of a shrink…

the aftermath of grandma  So Monday I took the kids, with grandma to do some shopping. I should have known better, but I didn't have much of a choice. Trinity-Vee and I needed new glasses my mom had my money and thought it would be a fun idea to come along. NEVER EVER AGIN!!!!!!! if there was&hel...