#ptsd

Let me preface by noting I have an inexplicable desire to spell valium like it's in the etymological school of 'vacuum' so I'll occasionally spell it 'valuum.' You get what you pay for around here. Tonight I've been irritable since about 4:30 when I woke up from my nap.  And I haven't been able t...

Good afternoon, loves. Firstly, I would just like to apologise for going MIA for a couple days, quite a lot has happened and I was taking some time to regain myself. The first day I didn't upload was because my laptop decided to break. It was working perfectly fine the night before, I finished on...

Hey. I've decided to make an account here, talk about my day, and to explain situations I've been in (I will include a Trigger Warning at the beginning of the entry if you guys would like me to talk about it/more in depth). and giving advice out to you all. You may also feel free…

I have so many thoughts in my head it makes me unwell. My mouth can’t keep up with my thoughts and my thoughts can’t keep up with my feelings. I need to empty my brain out and put all of my thoughts in written words just to even understand how I feel about basic things.…

I can't tell you how angry I am some days. The last few days my anxiety has been through the roof and I couldn't put my finger on what was causing it - then it hit me. I have PTSD. For over two years, our life has been stuck between extremes of so many emotions…

I am still struggling to find my way as a newly “single” mom of three. The burden is almost too much to handle. I have a job but can only work part time because of the kids school schedules. I have to be home in the morning to get them off to school and also…

It has been 848 days since the false accusation happened and our lives haven’t been the same. Days like today really bring me down, I haven’t heard from R since about 7am and normally he calls a few times to check in. Naturally my brains goes into worst case scenario every time because this situa...

I will never give you the satisfaction of knowing what you did to me. From Day 1 I kept telling you no. We were better friends because I KNEW you would never change. You convinced and took over my life. We had an agreement that YOU broke! How dare you!? Who do you think you…

Mental health office called again. Pushing me to find another doctor. It just reassures how I feel unwanted and too much of a "hassle" to deal with. Yesterday was his court date, I haven't heard back from the DA office on what happened. I can sit here and say I don't care but I do.…

I am feeling a bit more optimistic lately and a bit more capable of recognizing and breathing through my anxieties. I am also very happy that switching to a new birth control pill contributed to feeling a bit more stable. The underlying PTSD and anxieties are already there, and a negative hormone...