#personalgrowth

That's how long it's been since I last checked in here.  I never stopped journaling.  Even prior to my last entry on OD, when the site had been shut down, I'd transitioned to a different, private platform.  I've been journaling there this whole time.  But when I saw the yearly subscription fee hi...

This is a series of chapters where I will be unfolding a deeply personal story that has shaped who I am today. It is my sincere hope that through the telling of this story, I can find some level of peace with the events that transpired and perhaps reconcile with myself for the person I…

How can I be okay knowing I had no high school friends, no college friends, my siblings don’t want to talk to me and I can’t manage my own hair? Can I ever get those wasted years back? Is there any way to feel disabled and capable at the same time instead of swinging back…

Am I ableist? is it wrong to feel grateful I’m not a moderate/severe/whatever autistic? Should I have stayed at speclabs instead of going back to college? Was going away for college at 18 crazy? am I ableist?

  i so desperately want to be an energetic, friendly kind of person who knows everyone and travels everywhere…but….a****m lmao i’m still not even 100% sure I have it, but I’ve accepted people will always treat me like I have it. And, god knows why, but I keep hearing r*** in my head saying p...

Finding an old friend is like finding a lost treasure.  Well goddamn. It's literally been almost 10 years since I've written a post on this thing. What an old friend of mine. I must admit, I've thought several times of tracking down my old password and finding the email under this account just to...

For the first time this week, I am actually feeling pretty calm and dare I say happy! With the changes ahead of me, in the past I would be a mess right now - anxious and crying but after all the work I have done on myself this year, I am actually finding myself calm…