I don’t wanna you to see me
I just feel my body empty, every part of my soul is broken. I don't know how to stay safe...
#pain
024: It still hurts
It still hurts. It’s been seven months but it still hurts. A year ago today when we first said hello. I can still picture his smile like it was just yesterday. When will this end? When is my mind gonna stop having a glimpse of the past I shared with him? When is my heart…
Good morning! Happy Thursday!
It snowed last night. I hear from Julz that it will snow all day today and tomorrow too. *sighs* I can hear the mourning doves cooing in the tree next to my window... I think they are surprised to see and feel the wintry weather heh... I hope their eggs don't freeze. :( I had…
To new beginnings
This is a fresh new start. A new diary; one where I am not looking for anyone that I know or knew from here. I need this place for myself. A place that people in my home cannot just pick up and read as they can do with my physical journal. I bottled up writing…
Lola
Today. August 31st 3:30pm. My dog of 11 or 12 years had passed away today. I don’t feel like I’m alive. I feel as if I had just scooped my organs out and left them to rot in space. I feel sad, angry, anxious, guilty, exhausted and scared. She ended up dying a very slow…
Contentment
Tears start to slowly fall from my face. I'm exhausted keeping up with day to day tasks. It physical hurts to get out of bed. I would say that it is because my body is sore but I know that it would just be another lie I tell myself to keep going. It's like my…
Ignore the last post…
Good early Friday morning.. this Lunar Sagittarius is in pain.... I need to get either Maman to look at the bed... or Mama Lisa to bc this is ridiculous really. I'm really sorry about last night's post. It was not right... but I was tired, a tad disappointed that Dave was putting this off... aaan...
Doomsday
I have been thinking about it ... Doomsday.. will people learn... what will happen, what turn will humankind take.. and now I've stopped. If this, if that. No point in trying to catch the sands of time, as they will always shift and slip away. To understand the future and the purpose, is to know&...
The sorrow
My heart is bleeding 💔 I didn’t know my heart could feel this type of pain but the moment he said I love you but I don’t love you the same as I once did, my entire world shattered. I’m broken mentally, spiritually and emotionally… I pray on most days not to wake up just…
Struggles
Eyes wide open, heart beating fast, just another day in this world, feeling alone , feeling trapped in my own mind, Go on smile, hide the pain, you need to be strong for him. he cant do this without picking him up. Remember why your here, remember your place! Now be strong and get back…