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Mental health office called again. Pushing me to find another doctor. It just reassures how I feel unwanted and too much of a "hassle" to deal with. Yesterday was his court date, I haven't heard back from the DA office on what happened. I can sit here and say I don't care but I do.…

What is "home"? When I think of my home, I don't think of one at all. For 10 years, I had a home. One I built for my son and busted my ass for. I left it and although I could have always came back, it wasn't the same. It doesn't feel like my home…

https://outofthefog.website/what-to-do-1/ A collection of ideas and responses to personality disordered behaviors that have worked well in most cases. The 3 "C's" Rule - The 3 "C's" rule is a mantra for abuse victims that says: "I didn't cause it, I can't cure it and I can't control it." The 51% ...

You think so? I should call him? I don’t know. [embed]https://open.spotify.com/track/5puU24G3lHVsUXPAWW2ZpV?si=hkjjmF5qROKc0GLzzNMbrg&context=spotify%3Asearch%3Amake%2520it%2520rain[/embed] I am gonna have to spend time around the ex tonight. My stepson only has 2 basketball games left and I ...

I am bipolar: it does not exist without me and I do not exist without it.  I was diagnosed the summer of 2007, and it did not occur to me, that we are inseparable until lately, 14 years later.   Bipolar and other mental illnesses have wreaked havoc on my life and self perception.  My current…

OK so I was born like any other kid, but about 3ish days before my 5th birthday I woke up and I  threw up, I could not talk, I could not movie, I did not remember the day before. The next day my mom and dad took me to the ER, the ER had no idea…

My first diagnosis when I was 15 was Tourette’s syndrome. I used to get into so much trouble from my step mom for sniffing too much. Not sniffing drugs but just having the sniffles. I was unaware I was even doing it but I would later learn it was due to Tourette’s and was worse…

I'm not really sure how this sort of thing works, but I've always enjoyed writing short stories and my previous therapists were always suggesting I just "write it down" but sometimes writing down you inner most thoughts can be quite difficult, especially when your thoughts are as self destructive...

   I can wake up one morning, sit up in bed and think "Okay, it's a new day... Think positive. Be happy." Then all of a sudden I have a flashback of a memory. One memory leads pushes me down a dark painful rabbit hole. And I'm not even out of the bed yet, my…

So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…