#music

You sent her this song.  Followed by a slew of messages talking about how you never wanted to leave her - she didn't want to let you go.  The last time you sent me a song.... I honestly can't remember, maybe never? I know you have come home to play something on YouTube, but to…

Nighttime gets a little odd when trying to make anything make ends meet these days. The winds of mischief and shenanigans blow in and upset the peaceful balance after a semi-normal day. Numbers get much harder to see, especially when they're not there at all. The air rages when I've been out too ...

It's absolutely insane how good the Marketside Loaded Baked Potato Soup is, lmao. Each succulent and hearty spoonful evokes a different emotion from deep within the crevices of the soul. My first reaction was, "OH MY GOODNESS!" and that was while it was still cold. It wasn't even heated up yet an...

Without explanation one song dedicated to all of my exs. Note I had my first boyfriend in 1995 - my grade school sweetheart, who I did try and rekindle things with during high school. It didn't work - we were always in two different spaces. Also note my high school sweetheart I too tried to…

Never ever did I think that I would say I could relate to Eminem. YouTube decided I was in a place to feel my anger, my hurt, my betrayal. It teased me with Eminem's "Love the Way You Lie". I was taken a back, I replayed the song only the lyrical version. As the lyrics…

No dreams last night. Just sleep. I forgot to focus on it, to be honest. I did get a full eight hours of sleep, but there were no dreams or nightmares. Just fell asleep and woke up. Someone reminded me about C's music last night, too, by liking a comment I'd left on one of…

Music has been my therapy the past month.  I have turned to YouTube to select the fate of my day. Some days it sets me up for success and I'm able to function. Others, it wants me to heal and I spend the day inwardly reflecting and there's tears - a lot of tears. Music…

I gravity to music and writing to heal my broken soul. They're a beautiful ebb and flow. Entries under the "Musical Chairs" chapter will contain songs that create my life's playlist. From the sentimental moments to the hard ones and everything in between. Without further ado; Song #1. Mixed Drink...

Huh. I'm surprised to see how recently I posted on here. I am such a dog. My lust rarely feels appropriate. I'm hard on myself. I see myself as a pathetic teen boy. I'm neither of the latter two. At worst, I'm a pathetic 24 year old woman. Hahaha. Being gay is hard and exhilarating.…

It was a so-so day. Not everything went as smoothly as I would have liked it, but it wasn't bad. Quite a few people were friendly today. I guess I have to be thankful for small pleasantries.   I fell asleep for a while and then did  a little bit of straightening up. To be…