#mental

It's 1:40 a.m., and my cat woke me up—now I can't fall back asleep. This is my first post here, and I'm excited to start writing. I'm currently on day 4 of my social media detox. I've deactivated both Facebook and Instagram, cutting off my access to them completely. Instead, I created an accoun...

I can’t think anymore. I don’t know how to participate in conversation. My boyfriend made a comment earlier that stuck with me. He said “it’s funny how when you play the sims, I do most of the talking, and now that I’m playing the sims, I’m still doing most of the talking.” He laughed but…

Oh how I've been stressing out my own mind. While ofc, there are other factors that most definitely play a role in it, I find myself crying. Grateful. I have gotten through yet another what felt like a never ending week of just class work. I have realized that we as humans, don't give ourselves&h...

I used to Blog, not for any great reason, I would just get the urge now and then, to Blog as well.   That was back in the good old days, when some parts of the Internet weren't trying to sell me something; or send me copious e-mails about how great whatever I was doing…

I remember when they used to speak to me. Voices that were more like my family than my own family was. Not just cruel, but kind. Much like the Reverend Mother, I both loved and hated them.   I remember when Mother used to guide me. A voice from beyond, visions of brilliance and beauty.…

I was six when it first started. I remember the brown and white walls of the hospital room, being held down by the nurses as they yelled at you, demanding to know why I was so dehydrated. I stayed quiet, too afraid to tell them that I’d heard a voice telling me the drinks were…

I smoked in studio yesterday. I walked in studio with the producer who is married. The main producer I work with is married too. There I was, in studio, with two married men. But of course, I stay wearing baggy clothes and never remotely flirting. I always conduct myself in a classy manner. I mad...

These last 4 months have been extremely tough on my heart and mental state. I have been suffering from cognitive dissonance. To those of you who don't know what cognitive dissonance means, it is basically having two thoughts that contradict each other and makes it difficult for you to come to a c...

28/10/2022 Hello hello there   so im new here, ive had an online diary for like years so the concept is not new to me, anyway i decided i should change platforms since my other online diary was on a eating disorder platform (formerly called mpa but the name has changed to like ed community&h...

SAY IT WITH ME! I am powerful potential I am powerful potential I am powerful potential Repeat until you believe it.