#medication

I recently learned about attachment styles and their effect of relationships. Nothing in life has ever made more sense. I'm avoidantly attached through and through. I'm a cliche of child abuse and neglect who has grown up to have trust issues, be averse to conflict, and never ever ask for help fo...

The quietness of madness, of sorrow, of otherness. How it spirits you away to a place of silent tears and roaring shame, terror of the future. Is it madness to fear what lies under my medication? To know what’s on the other side? To wonder from time to time? I just want to sob into…

so.. one of the scariest things that happened to be, besides being homeless, was withdrawls from clonepam or clonazapam. when i moved from ri to florida i was sure i would be able to get my meds filled by the new doctor. but she wouldn't fill my clonepam because it's a controlled substance. which...

Ugh, I'm so depressed. When I feel this way, it feels like it's going to last forever, even if I am only feeling it for a few minutes. I'm off my anti-depressants. I've been bobbing around from one prescription to another, each having its own set of side problems, the latest being an issue with&h...

Well, here goes. For three days I've been wondering where to start. Perfectionist syndrome. Screw it. I just need to start getting stuff out. So here it goes, just bloody well start writing. I want to keep a journal to track my progress with micro dosing. I'm going to try two medicines. Psilocybi...

So I have Bipolar Disorder. I have been on lithium since January 2011. It changed my life. I began to function again. However, the lithium has terrible side effects. It’s toxic to the kidneys, it makes me super dehydrated, and I have problems with frequent urination, exhaustion, and weight gain. ...

So I didn’t write for a few days. I wish I could claim I was busy. But I spend most of my day sleeping. I don’t fall asleep until 4am and I end up sleeping until 9am, I get up and eat so I can take my meds, then I go back to bed til…

I had my first dose of Remeron last night. I slept until 1pm! So dozey couldn’t concentrate on anything, feel guilty I didn’t get any work done at all. I take klonopin and it’s like it just cancelled it out all together. I don’t think I’m going to take the Remeron again. I feel better…

I’ve been taking clonazepam for almost a year now. Doctor said my grieve  and ptsd has turned into depression.  I was on depression medication ten years ago and ended up on a form three with multiple suicide attempts. I’m scared to go back on them but my doctor says it will be ok and my…

So I’ve been doing pretty good for awhile now at not eating after 7pm and most days I usually only eat one meal cuz my sleep schedule is so messed up rn. I’m wide awake at night and then I sleep in. Takes me a few hours or more after waking to feel hungry or…