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You sent me this. When I say I stopped everything I was doing and sat here and committed to listening and hearing the words, I did.  I closed my eyes and the tears streamed. If you truly listen to this and hear our story - thank you. That gesture healed me for an evening.  I…

Monday marked 2 months, 8 weeks since your whore came forward and ended your perfect life. Let's do a recap shall we? I have heard all of the following things since she decided it would be best for everyone involved if the affair came to light. Including and not limited to: -I love you -I…

You sent her this song.  Followed by a slew of messages talking about how you never wanted to leave her - she didn't want to let you go.  The last time you sent me a song.... I honestly can't remember, maybe never? I know you have come home to play something on YouTube, but to…

Without explanation one song dedicated to all of my exs. Note I had my first boyfriend in 1995 - my grade school sweetheart, who I did try and rekindle things with during high school. It didn't work - we were always in two different spaces. Also note my high school sweetheart I too tried to…

Do you remember when we met? I do - it was briefly in 2001, little did I know that the chance meeting would be my future.... I was living in the dorms at EMU, you had come up with my boyfriend to party at the college level.  We were introduced and you weren't thought of…

Never ever did I think that I would say I could relate to Eminem. YouTube decided I was in a place to feel my anger, my hurt, my betrayal. It teased me with Eminem's "Love the Way You Lie". I was taken a back, I replayed the song only the lyrical version. As the lyrics…

One month since the affair was exposed. Until you are grieving you don't realize just how long a month can feel.  I felt like I endured a year within a 30-31 day time frame.  There were days when I didn't realize one had passed, sometimes the minutes turned into hours and I couldn't tell you…

Now that I'm sharing more and the situation is becoming sticky I figured I'd explain my style of writing and the purpose behind this "diary". _________________________________________________ By now if you've been following along you will see that whenever I reference the mistress in any context ...

One minute I love you. One minute I hate you. Is that what twenty years does or is that what narcissistic love does. Since the first day that your affair was exposed you have acted like it is water under the bridge, like cats out of the bag so we can move on. I can't…

It's amazing to see how someone's feelings towards another can change so drastically. Reading the notes that I've written once makes me realize that that version of me looks and sounds so in love until the point of blindness. Now that the spell wore off, I am starting to see the reality of things...