#infidelity

One month since the affair was exposed. Until you are grieving you don't realize just how long a month can feel.  I felt like I endured a year within a 30-31 day time frame.  There were days when I didn't realize one had passed, sometimes the minutes turned into hours and I couldn't tell you…

Now that I'm sharing more and the situation is becoming sticky I figured I'd explain my style of writing and the purpose behind this "diary". _________________________________________________ By now if you've been following along you will see that whenever I reference the mistress in any context ...

One minute I love you. One minute I hate you. Is that what twenty years does or is that what narcissistic love does. Since the first day that your affair was exposed you have acted like it is water under the bridge, like cats out of the bag so we can move on. I can't…

Music has been my therapy the past month.  I have turned to YouTube to select the fate of my day. Some days it sets me up for success and I'm able to function. Others, it wants me to heal and I spend the day inwardly reflecting and there's tears - a lot of tears. Music…

Has there ever been a song that you can listen to and each time you hear it from a different perspective - or you can feel it from another standpoint than your own? Today YouTube was working its magic and played "Thinkin' Bout Me" by Morgan Wallen - only it was the lyrical version. I…

I find myself asking the question "Why" so often now.  Whether it is aloud, amidst silent sobs, or silently like a broken record controlling my thoughts.... That and "what the fuck" So many times I find myself coming here to type a few words, hit delete, type a few more, delete again - to walk&he...

12/20023 Dear ____________,  I want to apologize for overreacting.  It was not needed. I'm embarrassed, humiliated, ashamed and more. I know, I was in the wrong in how I responded.  I'm sorry. I don't know where we go from here. Im I I feel all I do is hurt you, I don't know. If this…

I gravity to music and writing to heal my broken soul. They're a beautiful ebb and flow. Entries under the "Musical Chairs" chapter will contain songs that create my life's playlist. From the sentimental moments to the hard ones and everything in between. Without further ado; Song #1. Mixed Drink...

To the woman who had an affair with my husband*  I have gone back and forth for weeks now regarding addressing you and in what capacity would be best suited.  Since you have played victim, have lied, been vindictive, and are in need of validation of your role in this situation, I felt a letter&he...

I suppose it's time to do an introduction of sorts as to who the hell am I? As I typed I should let it be known that I wonder what my voice sounds like to you, as you read my entries - I like to consider myself an OG OD writer; I had my first…