#hopeless

What started it this time, I can't remember. It's always there, so when it rears its head, it's sometimes ambiguous as to its definite arrival, it's definite, "Go. Go." On a whim, on an early day in July, so a month ago, from my office computer I first looked up jobs that would be suitable…

Everyone does it. We tell lies if we want to admit it to ourselves or not. I tell lies every single day. I lie when I say I've had enough. That this time will be different. I'm going to stand up for myself and walk away for good. I lie when I say I won't…

Dear no one, I’ve always believed that what makes my life meaningful are the people that are in it, and that the purpose of life is to love and be loved. On my 21st birthday I learned that I would never have a deep and abiding romantic love. That a partner with whom I could…

This feeling inside Won’t go away eating me alive day after day! I wish it gone It never works  happy thoughts, it always lurks! The pain’s just there Fighting to stay take my last breath And have it’s way! I try and I try It never ends Wanna give up made my amends forgive my…

I hate this because I feel deflated. Deflated. The same word you used to describe how I make you feel. It’s a kind of emotional exhaustion. Disappointed. Hopeless. A little confused. Why.