#heartbroken

I know I am the worst person ever. And he did not deserve it because he has been nothing but loyal and caring to me. I feel like i have to live with this guilt now forever. It's not that i cheated on once. I am in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend for…

This is my first entry, I just felt like writing. Lately, I have been feeling lost and have been feeling like I have not been myself for the past year. I just want to vent my feelings out and just type it out. Last year I was impacted by COVID in the worst way ever,…

Dear no one, I’ve always believed that what makes my life meaningful are the people that are in it, and that the purpose of life is to love and be loved. On my 21st birthday I learned that I would never have a deep and abiding romantic love. That a partner with whom I could…

Yesterday I pretty much kept myself busy. Didn't want to think about last year but it was a constant thought. No worries I was good. I didn't bring it up and I definitely didn't lash out at him. I was feeling a bit under the weather and ended up crashing pretty early anyway. He and…

Trying to get by this weekend is harder than I thought it would be. The constant thought of what happened this time last year weighs heavily on my mind and my heart. I'm doing my best though. I haven't brought it up and I haven't lashed out. He knows this would be hard for me.…

I’ve often wonder why has it happened to me. Why if I’m loyal, respectful, organized, successful, with a great career and amazing personality, why was I Never The One. In my lifetime I have confessed 4 times my feelings. I was not accepted. Did I read bad the signals? or did I make them all…

For 10 weeks I've been stuck. My life got flipped upside down and turned around in February. I was sitting at work, a really chill shift 11pm-7am. Around 4 in the morning I received a message. The message I received "Hi, I think we know the same guy, Marcus. Just to let you know, he…

TW...   What I thought that it was gonna be a good day at the hospital it turned out to be not so good.  I went in today with my mom for her doctor's appointment but while we were where my mom asked me to talk to the doctor about my asthma and have I…

one night I was talking to my cousin in the living room while we were watching a movie and as I was doing that I kept on getting messages from him but my cousin would tell me to not respond so that he wouldn't think that I was always available to him. well, when I…

My parents live in a different city and I live in different so I had no one with me. That night was a very long and a lonely night. My friends did asked if I want they could stay with me but I needed the time to think. My mind was spinning and I was…