#growing

Getting older is so wild to me. I am 34 and I still feel like 19 years old. Still feel very uncertain about the direction my life is going. Still figuring out myself. It makes me think about people who marry or have children when they are really young, you're still so lost in your…

All my friends are becoming responsible adults. They're doing all the things I always assumed I'd also be doing by now... progressing in respectable careers... Getting engaged and married to wonderful people whom I adore... Getting mortgages, buying houses... Having babies... More and more often,...

I had a good therapy session today. She had me write a letter to my younger self and read it out loud. She also asked me a question that I've never thought of before. "Why are you able to set boundaries with your dad, but when it comes to your mom you accept her for…

Dear sister, I have a lot of pent up anger and resentment towards you. They say your first best friend in life is your sibling; that was not the case with us; you were my first enemy. I had my first and only cigarette at six years old because of you. I had my first…

Song: Trespassers William / Untitled            Mood:          Week of pregnancy: 11, day 1   I am so happy to be back on open diary. Last time I was logging on was when I was about 18! I am 25 now and my life is definitely different. I deal…