#goals

Met a really nice lady on one of the depression and anxiety groups on Facebook. It was interesting because everything I want to accomplish; she has done and she's only few years older than me. She published a book and has a YouTube channel. She's a go getter and it got me thinking what exactly&he...

I woke up super early; I slept from midnight to 5am. I have too many thoughts swarming around in my head. I keep thinking about what restrictive Reginald said, “You think by pushing out content is going to get you somewhere but it’s not going to get you anywhere. The way you are going is…

I slept from 12am to 6am. When I woke up, I watched a girl on YouTube visit Japan. She has traveled to over 120 counties, and I think she’s about 25 years old (I’m not sure). Then I watched another one of my favorite YouTubers who is an influencer from the Philippines. She travels often…

I was a wreck on the day of my audition. It took me nearly four hours to get ready because I kept needing to hop in a warm tub bc my feet were as cold as ice. Martin (the acting coach) was very sweet and patient. Our initial meeting at 11:30am turned to 1pm then…

I had another glorious day yesterday. Although I didn’t sleep much, I got out of bed and bought a #5 from McDonalds(McGriddle meal) & drove across the street to pick up a cinnamon dolce latte from Starbucks. I came home and savored every morsel. I canceled all my plans for the day because I w...

Tomorrow is part two of my music video. The first half was shot underwater but tomorrow will be the dance scene. I’m going to be very careful tomorrow because the last thing I want is a sprang ankle, cut or bruise. We only have one body, and I’m going to be gentle with mine. I…

It is a beautiful Saturday. I’m still exhausted from the music video shoot, but I managed to get out of bed earlier this morning to buy two venti cinnamon dolce lattes (with 3 pumps instead of 5) from Starbucks earlier. I also wrote a hook and first verse to a new instrumental given to me.…

I just came back from my trip to Cedar Park, Texas to do part one of my music video. It was an absolute blast, and a memory that will last forever! I am so forever grateful! My parents drove me there, which took about 3 hours and 25 minutes to get there. My mom always…

Last night, I saw my complex on the news for another shooting. I know the kids involved too. It’s really nothing new. It happens all the time. I lived there for 7 years. I lived in 3 different apartments within the complex during that time. The first apartment I lived with a janitor who was…

I have an audition tomorrow morning for Samsung Galaxy. It pays $800 but $2500 if they actually use the footage. Then afterwards I have a studio session with El DeBarge. I met with a vocal coach today who looked just like Santa Claus. When I first met him he seemed very depressed and his home&hel...