fear – Open Diary

Being forced to face my fear

Schrecken13

October 21, 2024

Then came a day when it all changed. I was in my mid-20's when another friend of my mom's invited the two of us to join her and her family at a local amusement park. The company she worked for at the time had their company picnic there, and she could bring several guests. I…

The ongoing creep factor

Schrecken13

September 20, 2024

As the summer came and went, and I began preparing to start my freshman year of college, that terrifying incident of the previous summer still weighed heavy on my mind. A vast green wall separated the house from my view, but as the leaves began to turn and fall, it reappeared once again. Once in&...

Heightening the fear

Schrecken13

August 3, 2024

Earlier this evening as I was reading over some news stories, I came across something quite shocking, at least to me. The word on the street thus far, so to speak, has been that the new Key Bridge will be slightly taller than the old one. But oh no, it seems a little bit just…

Could I face it?

Schrecken13

August 3, 2024

Speaking of the malevolent monarch of all dreadful bloodstained monsters, that foreboding, fear inspiring mega structure of the south that is the Sunshine Skyway Bridge.... Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I was to wake up tomorrow and find myself in its neck of the woods. If I was nearby,...

I kept having nightmares

Schrecken13

July 31, 2024

Ironically the Sunshine Skyway was one of the first of that kind to be built in the US. It was the real start of that design “fad” here in North America. I don't know what it is about that particular bridge, but I keep having nightmares about it. Never had any about the Key or…

Nightmare drive

Schrecken13

July 19, 2024

Bridges never scared me, not even the infamous and much feared Chesapeake Bay Bridge which I had crossed many times riding with my parents as a child. But this time the situation was different. I was totally alone and feeling the growing anxiety of possibly being – or getting - lost. And I could ...

Loneliness really does hurt…

HiddenSmiles

April 11, 2023

Hi, this feels a little weird but relaxing, i dont have any friends and haven't had any in quite some time, i think the trauma from being ghosted by pretty much every person in my life outside of my immediate family has really made me okay with being alone but a lot of nights it…

back to reality (?)

amillionthoughts

October 22, 2022

Hey there. Forgot about this place. I wrote one entry four years ago on this new account, and then life got in the way, as it is wont to do. I suppose I said what needed to be said at the time. In the past, I've just come here when Nicola springs to mind. I…

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Aruhi

October 20, 2022

I fear that I don’t know what I’m doing. I am so afraid, so busy and so entrenched that I have lost myself in puddles of poop. I don’t have a more elegant way to put it, I know I should be distancing myself from falling into my to-do list but I can’t! I am…

Your thoughts?

Aruhi

October 20, 2022

I think I am a good writer. When it comes to putting the thoughts in my head onto paper, I got this! I don’t know how to turn 'this' into something though, something meaningful, useful or lucrative even. Why do I want to make something of 'this' skill? I literally sound like a mad person,…