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You stopped saying goodnight. And I stopped sleeping. I was kept awake with the thoughts of maybe I was overthinking. Maybe you didn't want me. Maybe you didn't need me. Maybe you didn't love me. Maybe you never did. Maybe it was me being naive, but when it started it felt amazing. It made me&hel...

I called my mom today and cried to her. We talked about heartbreak and the feeling of inadequacy. I told her how much the last month had been weighing down on me; how things at work weren't going well, I was was struggling to sleep because of my depression and PTSD and how every time…

Mike was my first boyfriend in high school. He was a senior and I was a junior, he was 18 and I was 16. He was tall, pale, and lanky, with a great smile and a sharp sense of humor. He also had nice hair from what I remember. He carried way too many keys…

I stopped looking at him as a boyfriend, as a man, as someone I loved. Because, after believing that our love is a big one, one that we only see on screens, one we only read in fairytales, he texted me. After a whole month, believing that he will wait for me, loving every bit…

Why do I care? I don’t know exactly how this site works but I just want to get these thoughts out and maybe someone else has experienced this. I was married to my high school sweetheart for 19 years. He abused me for years but I stayed in some codependency state I suppose looking back…

this is my first time writting online diaries so its feels kinda cool i dont know how to express my feelings so i think my personality makes me weird to get along with my friends, tho i have 4 other close friends when someone is my close friends, i rely on them a lot like…

(TW: a lot of shit) fuck this i always get so scared to write out how i feel bc i think SOMEONE is watching me but idgaf anymore bc i need to get this out. i am a genderfluid lesbian (afab). and i hate everything. i got diagnosed with depression in august 2021. right when…

7:30a.m. Tuesday morning, 7th April 2015 Dearest Friend, For a change, Emanoel has decided to send me a message in the style of a letter, to show how much he appreciates us staying in contact. It’s very amusing to see how much he’s opened up to me as friend since departing home, and has emotional...

It's been years since I've seen you but I think of you often today, I seen you unexpectedly I was a juror and you were one of the cases I tried not to look at you I noticed when you were talking  about your case you were rocking and turning in your chair My brain…

I wanna find love I'm ready for someone to love me but I want the real love not the fake love I'm so afraid I'll find the same abuser I was with but in a different form, in a different person I either find guys who don't love me or find ones that will abuse…