#divorce

That's how long it's been since I last checked in here.  I never stopped journaling.  Even prior to my last entry on OD, when the site had been shut down, I'd transitioned to a different, private platform.  I've been journaling there this whole time.  But when I saw the yearly subscription fee hi...

Years ago while in the Army I got married. I got married way too soon. So I was station in Maryland and I started dating this girl. Things were good. We had fun and liked each other a lot. Then the military decided I needed to move to another base. Money was tight and they…

How? How could something so amazing turn into something so heart breaking? You were everything to me. A 5 year marriage. To the absolute love of my life. Everything was perfect. You truly opened my eyes to what I thought love truly was. You changed my views on having children. And you gave me the...

Things are becoming more and more real. This part of chapters of my book is over. I'm not even sure which part I would be one in my book, but this one is actually coming to a close. Obviously, I have children with this man so there will always be some cross over from this…

This is a fresh new start. A new diary; one where I am not looking for anyone that I know or knew from here. I need this place for myself. A place that people in my home cannot just pick up and read as they can do with my physical journal. I bottled up writing…

Hi all, another day and another question on life.   What are we really seeing and moving for?  I have to admit, I am divorced, focused on moving up in my "new" life, becoming independent again, focusing on self reflection and personal growth.  Re-found my faith in God, (as scary as that may be fo...

Here I sit…. Just found this site and not even really sure how it works. So…….  Lets begin I feel mixed feelings on life,  where, how , whats next…. All of it So stand by…. As i un-ef my thoughts we will continue thanks for lookin

I had a good therapy session today. She had me write a letter to my younger self and read it out loud. She also asked me a question that I've never thought of before. "Why are you able to set boundaries with your dad, but when it comes to your mom you accept her for…

Why do I care? I don’t know exactly how this site works but I just want to get these thoughts out and maybe someone else has experienced this. I was married to my high school sweetheart for 19 years. He abused me for years but I stayed in some codependency state I suppose looking back…

How do learn to love again? After you married someone who didn't know how to love you. How do trust again? After you rekindle a fire with a man who lays you down and tells you he wants a life with you, but then he goes home to a family that you thought he'd separated…