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Things are supposed to move forward but somehow I'm going backwards. yesterday i turned 15 but my shoes are starting to feel tighter, outgrowing my memories and dreams. I'm losing myself in between what is and what could be. Wishing for a new day, and when that day comes I'll stand quiet wishing ...

I'm sorry. Im sorry I said that. You mean so much to me. You shouldn't be dragged down into my misery. I know you arent mad. and I know you wont hold it against me. But I want to make it up to you. You deserve better than to have me as your friend and…

"People Pleaser" I would be fearless. I would say no more often. I would tell people to go f*ck themselves, & take no guilt in the matter. I would hear my own opinions, & act on them without hesitation. I would fall in love, & let others fall in love with me. I would find beauty…

Last night as I was trying to sleep, I thought to myself that it would be so nice to have somewhere to put my thoughts where random, unknown people could read them. I have trouble telling people how I feel about them face to face or how they have wronged me. Little did I know…

I fear that I don’t know what I’m doing. I am so afraid, so busy and so entrenched that I have lost myself in puddles of poop. I don’t have a more elegant way to put it, I know I should be distancing myself from falling into my to-do list but I can’t! I am…

I put argan oil in my hair today.  It's meant to nourish and restore your hair back to original glory, whatever that means.  Like most of the stuff I buy, I got this from a cheap superstore that also stocks products such as ‘Chanel’ tea sets and hijabs for your cat, so naturally, this must…

Romance isn’t nearly as easy as it seems. Especially for an over thinker such as myself. Every second you’re not texting them, every second you aren’t talking to them, they are always in your mind. Furthermore, if something happens that even slightly makes you upset, it hits at least 20x harder b...

His body was heavy on me, sweating on my skin, moaning in my ear. The ceiling is white with weird shapes like the ones all old townhouses have. The air coming from the window is blowing at the tapestries on the wall. Has he finished yet?  I told you NO. I told you I don’t…

Hello, everyone! This is my first time here and I think I'll be staying here often to vent out my thoughts when I don't have someone to talk to. I also compose songs whenever my negative emotions tryna eat me whole lol. I'm kinda glad that I found a place where I can share things…

As the title suggests, I'm new to Open Diary. I've been using writing as a form of therapy for years. It usually doesn't matter what I write as long as I start writing something. Eventually I'll end up telling a story from my past or sharing my hopes and dreams for the future.   The…