#depressed

You knew my past. You knew I came from shit. You knew what my Father had done to me, you knew what other men had done to me. You repeatedly coerced me to be raw and vulnerable with you, you convinced me to trust you. I really did trust you. But now, well now I…

22/04/2024 I just feel very shit and emotional today. Yesterday was Jaimie’s birthday celebration and today is her actual 21st birthday. It makes me feel so sad…she has grown up so fast and honestly it just brings up memories of Clint. All that sadness boils up, even as I write this I cry. You ma...

Today I laid on the bathroom floor. I pressed my cheek against the cold white tiles and listened to the muffled sounds of my dad and my brother fighting downstairs. And the time paused. It paused for a while and the whole time it was paused the muffles in my ear never went away. I’m…

I've been having this problem/feeling lately. I was best friend with this girl for 13 years. I'm going to call her "L". L and I met in kindergarten and were best friend's since then. We did almost everything together. Her parents would take me with them everywhere they went because L was an only ...

In my previous writings I've talked about R and what he did to me. It's been almost 3 years and him and my old friend group like to come to my work and watch me. It's started about 5 months ago when they saw me working. They started coming more often after seeing me. One…

I wish someone could save me from emotional pain. I wish someone could realise I am not okay.  I haven't been happy in along time. I am not close with my family or do not have any genuine friends. I think my work contract is coming to an end early because there hasn't been a…

I don't know how much more I can take of been with my partner. I feel like he bullies my 5 year old son all the time, he has ago at him about everything and it really pisses me off. Iv told him multiple times to leave him alone and he still does it. It…

I'm depressed  and idk i have a lot of conflicting views on life and can't seem to pick one because I feel like both of those conflicting views are based off how I see people live their life, and just something inside of me doesn't make any sense. I'm just confused, and idk im just…

Well remember that guy you guys read in that previous entry.. well things have gotten alot worse.. i am now being kicked out with no where to go and honestly i dont even know or understand how this could have happened. I truly feel dumb because every one told me this would happen and here…