#coping

Lately I've been thinking about what I've learned in the past 20 some odd years with regards to the defeat of the terrible phobia I once suffered. I meticulously documented my struggle in imagery and writing back then (including having a journal here at OD), and I even kept track of and made copi...

It's going on 2 am and I'm on my 2nd panic attack today and since I can't do anything to make is it disappear quickly, my usual tricks not working. I will just write. I love writing and it's a good distraction. I have to find lots of tricks to deal with my severe anxiety.…

I woke up at 7:30 this morning, still in a fog from the 6 pack of IPAs I had last night. As I lay there, my mind raced through the same thoughts I have been drowning in for some time, along with some new ones: My ex-wife has married again. That brings me joy, but…

I don’t want to trigger anyone. I do want to use this open diary as a safe place for myself and everyone else to share our honest thoughts. Mine aren’t always good but they aren’t always bad either. I am struggling a lot that’s for sure. I read back on my entries from 2007 and…

Some of you may or may not know, but I got diagnosed officially with Type 2 Diabetes recently. I've been struggling with the various components of this disease for years, and I knew it was inevitable because both my parents' parents had it, and a couple of my aunts have it already. Knowing all of...