#confused

This is my first entry, I just felt like writing. Lately, I have been feeling lost and have been feeling like I have not been myself for the past year. I just want to vent my feelings out and just type it out. Last year I was impacted by COVID in the worst way ever,…

Day one here! Hello to anyone that'll listen. I feel like I've been on this journey of being "still" for a while now. I've become more comfortable than ever. I feel so depressed some days and totally fine others. Today is one of my totally fine days. I've been in a "situationship" with someone fo...

I am new to this. I have been told to write in a journal and things will feel better, so here I am. I am one to bottle in my emotions. Never good. When I explode, it helps no one. Not me, especially. Even if you'd think it would because I did the explosion. I…

Alright so let's get straight to the point, relationships SUCK. Ya, they are actually so amazing but they suck when they end. I was in a relationship about a year ago and it lasted a few months. I know it wasn't long, but we connected. Everything about him was perfectly matched with my energy and...

Not the one to usually use things like this but I need to let it out somewhere... I don't even know where to begin my life has been a total roller coaster seeming to go down a big hill and not stopping any time soon. I'm young (19) and still got a lot ahead of…

He says or rather he DOESN’T say things that really causes issues between us. When he should be saying the right or wrong thing he doesn’t say anything all. Which to me by not saying anything means I wouldn’t like his answer. I’m tired of this feeling. Tired of feeling not good enough. I’m tired&...

Yesterday I pretty much kept myself busy. Didn't want to think about last year but it was a constant thought. No worries I was good. I didn't bring it up and I definitely didn't lash out at him. I was feeling a bit under the weather and ended up crashing pretty early anyway. He and…

Trying to get by this weekend is harder than I thought it would be. The constant thought of what happened this time last year weighs heavily on my mind and my heart. I'm doing my best though. I haven't brought it up and I haven't lashed out. He knows this would be hard for me.…

So this morning he brought to my attention that today Is the day we started talking again 4 years ago. But after last year this is no longer our “anniversary”. He was talking to a girl (almost 20 years younger than him) behind my back. This time last year he could care less about our…

Is closure even a real thing? When things end we focus so much on being able to have closure when in reality we use it as an excuse to hold on. I've been having closure with you for years now. When will closure ever be truly closure?   I met you at an odd time…