#choices

It's just one of those days where you don't know left from right or up from down. I'm struggling with so many things, yet it doesn't seem like much. Everybody tells me I am doing such a good job, yet I get no freedom. I'm living under a constant watchful eye who criticizes and never…

I just slept eight hours. When I first quit smoking, I would have the most vivid dreams and remember every detail. Just now, I remember dreaming but I can’t recall everything. I just remember a girl in my dream, asking me if I smoked and me telling her I was unsure. We were in my…

I am not afraid I am a 39 year old mom and have struggled all my life to find belongingness. In the course of my existence I have been ignored, isolated and restricted by most people I find are significant in my life. At the age of 9, I find myself alone in my own…

To appreciate the humor in this photo of the top of my refrigerator On the right a sign from my cousin, “If you ask me to hold your drink, I will drink it” Fact! She doesn’t really drink. On the left, a sign made by my 420 friendly friend. She doesn’t believe in God drops…

Almost every night, i run a poll on my Twitter timeline usually with the hashtag if given a chance (i.e. #ifgivenachance). The poll lasts for a day so i have the result by the end of the next night i.e. 24 hours. Two days back, i did this one - If given a chance, what…

Ah, its been years since I've journaled. Literally years. Its going to be nice. I need a place for my thoughts, so Im back. My head is a spinning around and my anxiety is high. This man that i allowed to hurt me emotionally, physically and mentally is driving me up the fucking wall with…

FRIDAY, AUGUST 7,  2020 :   Life is a petty game. We live to survive in this cruel world. No one understands each other and that's what makes us fall apart, we keep it to ourselves or confide in a friend or even our partners, me on the other hand, I confided in my ex…