#cheating
Time is a rolling stone
Minutes have turned into hours......hours into days....days into a week.... Why - why is it so different this time. I know one "why"... Because it was so out of character for him. I had assumptions that there was infidelity, more so random one night hookups. "Innocent", flirtatious, sexual bante...
Lost Roads Lead to Home
"Where to begin?" I think the hardest thing about trying to understand and process the current is understanding the past year and a half....but with that involves explaining an entire two decades... And quite honestly I don't have the energy at the moment to dissect twenty years.. I'm sure there'...
Marriage Healing Path
To contact or Not to contact My darling, I know to others you believe you are not wanted. Perhaps my wanting you enables the other woman. It probably does. It is the lies that are most hard to deal with. You call me out on everything and remember everything I've ever done, yet claim no…
my letter to you
very personal and just a little graphic so discretion lol just a little backstory to this diary entry i had written a few days ago: i just had my 20th birthday and my ex-boyfriend, after no contact of three years (i have him blocked on everything) decided to call my best friend a million times a...
Jealousy
Ah, Jealousy. The mistrustful monster that haunts each breath. Ever been scared of your partner's phone? Yes. That's exactly what I mean. I believe that the trend that has been normalised is not ok. I am referring to constant change of relationships. Well, not that it is better to be enslaved in ...
Chapter 2
Lonely is a complicated word. You could be absolutely surrounded by people at work, or at home and still feel so disconnected. And that's how I felt. I felt disconnected from my husband. I decided if we couldn't connect on a healthy level then I'm going to find someone to connect with. I was very...
Chapter 1
The story I will be sharing is one filled with shame and regret. It's also a story of love and sacrifice. This is my story, a tale of events that have transpired woefully, in and out of my favor for the last 3 years. Summer of 2019. I was accepted into a nursing program. Well,…
If I could do it all again I would change..
If I could go back in time to about 5 years into my relationship, when I found out I was being cheating on. I would have never forgiven him. He snuck a whole relationship behind my back for 2 years, had grown distant because he said he was "stressed" and had "depression" and here he…
Listen to the Dread.
Listen to the dread. It is never wrong. I’ve had three serious relationships in my life. Antonio, EJ and Michael. Antonio was my first love. As an adolescent, I adored him. I thought he was smart, charismatic and funny. I was a senior in High School and I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do…