#changes

These last 4 months have been extremely tough on my heart and mental state. I have been suffering from cognitive dissonance. To those of you who don't know what cognitive dissonance means, it is basically having two thoughts that contradict each other and makes it difficult for you to come to a c...

I am still trying to convince myself that everything is not final until I set foot on the island where I am going to move soon. Last week, I finally got all the clearance I need to exit the country. Now, it's up for my employer to book our tickets and we are targeting to…

Finding an old friend is like finding a lost treasure.  Well goddamn. It's literally been almost 10 years since I've written a post on this thing. What an old friend of mine. I must admit, I've thought several times of tracking down my old password and finding the email under this account just to...

For the first time this week, I am actually feeling pretty calm and dare I say happy! With the changes ahead of me, in the past I would be a mess right now - anxious and crying but after all the work I have done on myself this year, I am actually finding myself calm…

Hello again old friend! I haven't seen you in quite some time! It's ironic and fitting that I used this title on my last entry all those years ago. So much has changed.  I probably should start writing here again, it would be good therapy.  Goodness knows I have a lot of things on my…

Song: Trespassers William / Untitled            Mood: 😏         Week of pregnancy: 11, day 1   I am so happy to be back on open diary. Last time I was logging on was when I was about 18! I am 25 now and my life is definitely different. I deal…