#bulimia

I'm a 16, girl, and this is my 5-year journey. 6th Grade- I've grown up as a fat, obese child: in 6th grade, I began skipping meals to lose weight and it worked, but it wasn't noticeable. It was overlooked as me just growing and slimming out, but I was still overweight at this time. Mental…

Everyone who touches me makes a comment about how bony I am. I secretly love thinking I might be but my body still has a lot of flaws and flabby areas. I don’t eat anything that I don’t throw up except for my bouillon cube and sometimes fruit. I try to avoid eating fruit though,…

It’s been a while since I’ve had free time at work, but I had some time today so I went into a patient’s room who had been combative with the techs. One of the techs said he wouldn’t or couldn’t eat and left with the food tray next to him. I put the tray in…

I’ve read that most bulimics are average weight or above average. I’m not sure how other bulimics eat, but I don’t eat 3 normal meals a day and binge/purge other times. Certain things I eat I’ll just want to throw up. It doesn’t matter how many calories are in something or how much I eat.…

I had a few busy days at work. I feel so dumb at work. I’m always behind and asking for help with how to do something. Even the secretary took off on a day I’m supposed to be in charge because she knows it will be awful. I keep thinking I’ll get better, but I…

I started taking laxatives. That's gross. I'm so obsessed with this. I had to go get my hair fixed today, and all during it I was thinking about food and planning my purges. I work this weekend. No one there knows except one person, and no one anywhere else knows. I trust her and she's…

I had to create a diary because I am so obsessed with food, I want to just talk to someone constantly about it. I started throwing up what I ate only a few weeks ago, but it really took over my life fast. I hadn’t meant it to, but even my thoughts have changed about…

Ana and Mia continue to rise…I’m not complaining, they’re making me feel strong in some twisted sense. I know it’s not healthy, but nor is the extra weight that I’m carrying, so why not let them run riot and use it to my advantadge. There’s something so satisfying in being able to beat the hunger...

What I'm about to say I am saying purely to get off my chest. I'M NOT SAYING TO GET ATTENTION, SYMPTHY, PITY OR WELL WISHES. Therefore if you're going to judge me or criticise me or whatever then keep it to yourself. I don't care what an idiot you think I am. I don't care that you…

  I feel sick. I know why. Because I've been thinking about what I've eaten today. I feel like putting my fingers are down my throat. I also feel like if I was to be sick, that I honestly wouldn’t be bothered about it.  I don't care about being sick anymore, in fact I welcome…