#bodydysmorphia

So… Sometimes you need to take a long hard look at yourself, but it’s not always your true reflection that stares back at you. I so rarely see myself when I look in the mirror that I often wonder if the dysmorphia stemmed the mental health issues, or did the mental health issues create the…

So...I’m back. I’ve missed you since you’ve been gone. A lot has happened. A lot has changed. I’ve spent 3 days working through my archive, editing, cleaning some entries up. I’ve republished the important parts of my backstory. They reminded me why I’m back here; it’s time to heal. This diary wi...

    So, I haven't felt like I've really had anything within me of substance to write about. Tonight that changes. I've just had another moment of realisation. The S/H, the S/I, the S/M, the EDs, and everything else, I know why I do it. I do it because I hate myself. Truly I do.…

Put me on the slab...cut me open and take the fat...cut out my my troubles and pain...and myabe just maybe...I'll be me again...