#alcohol

Saturday, 30 April 2022   I painted this morning when I got home from work. Last week I got two painting pads with 10 sheets in each pad. It bowed up pretty quickly when I was painting. I liked the painting at first but then I just kept adding more and more and it ended…

To contact or Not to contact My darling, I know to others you believe you are not wanted. Perhaps my wanting you enables the other woman. It probably does. It is the lies that are most hard to deal with. You call me out on everything and remember everything I've ever done, yet claim no…

Today marks the 15th day since I gave up alcohol. The pandemic came about while I was living in the Pacific Northwest, Oregon to be exact. It's a rainy, gloomy environment where drinking alcohol is the average hobby of most. I too fed into the madness of finding the crown jewel of beer, the IPA&h...

On 06-10-2022 I lost another family member, my little sister, to alcohol induced cirrhosis of the liver! A few years earlier my older sister passed from the same condition/disease/stupidity, plus an addiction to Oxycodone/Percodan, a few years before that I lost my Aunty who also died from this s...

I found out about my community Facebook group at this public board meeting I went to, and the admins accepted me today. I went scrolling back through past post and I am stocked about living here. People here are having community patio parties, holiday parties in the clubhouse, paint nights and Eu...

I did really well. I woke up.  I worked from 9-5. Then my partner went out ... and I turned down doing out with him because I didnt want to drink... and then I instantly drove to the liquor store and brought beer. I've had 3 in 20 minutes because I want to drink as…

Well i did it. Its 9.11pm and I'm getting tired from a day of boredom and stress and making myself distracted every 2 seconds with horrible chores. My partner wanted to go out tonight... so I had to tell him that I'm trying to quit drinking and I dont feel comfortable going out because it'll…

Its 11.16 and I've been up since 8am. First thought... coffee then beer. So I had my coffee. Then I had another coffee. Then i cleaned the house from top to bottom. I've literally done everything. And now its 11.16. And I'm sitting on the couch wondering what to do. I dont want to eat…

It's time to quit drinking. I'm 30 years old... and I've finally realised I have a problem. Actually i realized quite a while ago but never strong enough to address it. It's funny because I'm sitting in my car right now... drinking a 6 pack... telling myself it's time. Except I can't even put thi...