#affair

You sent her this song.  Followed by a slew of messages talking about how you never wanted to leave her - she didn't want to let you go.  The last time you sent me a song.... I honestly can't remember, maybe never? I know you have come home to play something on YouTube, but to…

Falling in love is such an easy thing to do And there's no guarantee that the one you love Is gonna love you I swear this is literally the soundtrack of my mind..."Everybody Plays the Fool" - you know the song from maybe the late 80's, early 90's? Welp that's what is replaying…

Never ever did I think that I would say I could relate to Eminem. YouTube decided I was in a place to feel my anger, my hurt, my betrayal. It teased me with Eminem's "Love the Way You Lie". I was taken a back, I replayed the song only the lyrical version. As the lyrics…

They say time heals all wounds.... but what is the time frame? I feel like I am slowly moving forward, I can't wrap my head around the fact that its already been a month; 30 days have passed. I feel like you - you think things are fine. I honestly have felt like the night…

12/20023 Dear ____________,  I want to apologize for overreacting.  It was not needed. I'm embarrassed, humiliated, ashamed and more. I know, I was in the wrong in how I responded.  I'm sorry. I don't know where we go from here. Im I I feel all I do is hurt you, I don't know. If this…

I gravity to music and writing to heal my broken soul. They're a beautiful ebb and flow. Entries under the "Musical Chairs" chapter will contain songs that create my life's playlist. From the sentimental moments to the hard ones and everything in between. Without further ado; Song #1. Mixed Drink...

Did you know there is science behind why we remember certain events? I first learned of this when I was watching "Someone Like You" (Ashley Judd: 2001).  She is meets with a plastic surgeon to discuss having her amygdala removed because she read that it controlled her olfactory sense to associate...

As I said I consider myself an OG Open Diary author - this is actually my 3rd online diary.  Publicly sharing has given me peace, a sense of community, and its my therapy.  My first diary was 2001 - and it ran up until 2009 (estimate), sadly I don't remember its name or the e-mail associated…

To the woman who had an affair with my husband*  I have gone back and forth for weeks now regarding addressing you and in what capacity would be best suited.  Since you have played victim, have lied, been vindictive, and are in need of validation of your role in this situation, I felt a letter&he...

I suppose it's time to do an introduction of sorts as to who the hell am I? As I typed I should let it be known that I wonder what my voice sounds like to you, as you read my entries - I like to consider myself an OG OD writer; I had my first…