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• Can’t make this stuff up

  November 30, 2022

  I am <insert different word than dumbfounded here> because I have done some more Ancestry.com research. And I found out more information about my mother that I never knew. Thanks to a government census, in 1950, my mother, her husband #3 (who I didn't know anything about until recently as w...

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• When it rains, it pours

  November 29, 2022

  Today was another grey sky, rainy, cold, blustery day. It became twilight at noon and depressing as can be. I kept busy with laundry and cooking. I made vegan yeast dinner rolls as a way to take up time during the afternoon.  I really don't like my spouse's food requirements. He doesn't have to d...

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• crack in the shell

  November 28, 2022

  My emotional armor is fairly strong. I don't stay angry for very long. I may get my feelings hurt from time to time, but the sting goes away after a day or so. But today was not a good day for me emotionally. My son was cremated today. It's been a month and he's finally…

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• Colonoscopy

  November 27, 2022

  My spouse is having a colonoscopy on Monday. I think this is the 3rd or 4th time he's had one. Like clockwork. It's a horrible experience from my viewpoint. Which is why I won't have one. As I get older, I'm less interested in finding out what is going to kill me. I'd prefer the…

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• 2022 – year of the non-holiday

  November 24, 2022

  It's Thanksgiving. And I'm lonely. My son is dead. My daughter doesn't want to communicate with her dad very much. My husband uses food as a stress reliever. My husband has stopped talking with his sister. All of our parents are dead. There aren't any grandchildren. I didn't want to cook a Thanks...

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• one lane only

  November 21, 2022

  I finally tested negative on the Covid test. Finally. Back into society I go.

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• It was bound to happen

  November 20, 2022

  I'm not sure what to do with this one. An acquaintance sent me a text concerning my son's death. I don't know this person very well. We just volunteer at the same place once a week for a couple of hours. We don't have deep intimate conversations or anything. Fairly superficial. Anyway, in the tex...

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• Day 9

  November 18, 2022

  Took another Covid test this morning. Still testing positive. It's been 9 days since I took my first Covid test. I'm taking a test every other day now. I would like to feel 100% again or whatever the equivalent of 100% is for a 69-yr old.  But I've started to make my own breakfast again…

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• Covid

  November 15, 2022

  I've got Covid. I guess it was just a matter of time. Despite having been vaccinated twice, I still got Covid. It's been about a week since I first tested myself because I just wasn't feeling right. I wanted to tell myself it's just a post-travel, death-related stress type of cold. But, no, it's ...

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