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I’m a long, long way from giving up

July 11, 2024
If there's one thing I know about myself is that I have been tested more times than I'd like to be. When I came back to Opendiary when it was brought back to life, I realized that I didn't need it as much now as I did back in some of my darkest days. However,…
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