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I could be watching TV…

August 25, 2018
But I'm not. I am sitting here listening to music. I reflect on this black heart of mine. It has become so full of pain and rage and I haven't a clue of how to rid myself of it. I have to admit the only bright spots still surviving are the love I have for…
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