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• Therapy

  March 1, 2023

  I had a good therapy session today. She had me write a letter to my younger self and read it out loud. She also asked me a question that I've never thought of before. "Why are you able to set boundaries with your dad, but when it comes to your mom you accept her for…

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• Searching For Sunshine

  February 23, 2023

  I've been trying to make sense of the pain I feel. I pinch myself sometimes because this shit don't feel real. I'm numb from my head, down to my toes. My heart still beats inside but with a different tone.   Sometimes this all feels like I'm stuck here trapped inside my mind. Look into…

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• Night #1 without him

  February 21, 2023

  He left at 5am, I've been up ever sense. I kept myself as busy as I could today but even so I had moments of extreme sadness. Something as stupid as finding a claw clip of mine that he wears sent me to tears. So I shoved it in a drawer, got back up and…

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• Alone

  February 20, 2023

  He left for work today and won't be home for 3 months. I wonder how loud the silence will be.

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• Long Distance

  February 19, 2023

  Has anyone ever had a long distance relationship? My boyfriend and I have been together for 5 years. I know this circle is for marriage but its the closest thing I could find to a circle about relationships and I am desperate to be apart of a community of people that can share any advice…

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• Shrek

  February 18, 2023

  It's 2 am and we just watched Shrek(2). Our cat knocked over an entire glass of water. You cleaned it up, I watched. I watched the whole movie watching you. Soaking up the moments. Trying to press record in my brain for when you're gone. I know I have big day tomorrow and I should…

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• Sink or Swim

  February 17, 2023

  2/17 Friday Why does everything feel so heavy? It's not even that deep. He's going away to make money, but he'll come back for me... Right? And when he's gone, I'll finally have my "Emily in Paris" moment that I've wanted for so long. Right? I could move, I could record music, I could grow.…

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• Who Would I Be If No-one Else Was Around?

  February 14, 2023

  "People Pleaser" I would be fearless. I would say no more often. I would tell people to go f*ck themselves, & take no guilt in the matter. I would hear my own opinions, & act on them without hesitation. I would fall in love, & let others fall in love with me. I would find beauty…

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