Recent Entries

•  Watch the universe expand.

  September 12, 2018

  Hope is a gift of the young.  I thought "I'll find someone to love, buy a house, have a family, make friends, live the dream".  Some of those things happened.  Some of them didn't.   Then I watch.  People get older.  Frail. They drift outward into space.  Just like the explosion that started it a...

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• Are You A Believer?

  February 17, 2018

  Is that the truth?  If I lie, if I get angry at someone, if I say "jesus fucking christ", I really deserve to burn in hell for all eternity?  I didn't think to ask any of those questions when I was told that, at the age of 8. I didn't ask that until I was…

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• Plenty & Famine

  February 16, 2018

  Invariably there are times of plenty and times of famine.  I want to be on the mast of a ship in the middle of a storm with my legs long since blown off screaming at the thunder and lightning and asking god if that’s all he’s got.  But I’m not.  I’m here on the ground,…

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• The Broken Heart

  February 14, 2018

  No one likes the mundane details that happen after a happy ending.  That's why they end it there.  It's as if to say there's no more story left once you're happy. Let's talk about the very opposite of a soul mate.  The one that broke my heart. On a Sunday morning, I met her in…

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• Happy Valentines Day

  February 14, 2018

  “And what would humans be without love?”   Rare, said Death   -Terry Pratchett   Happy Valentines Day    

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• Home

  February 13, 2018

  It was a year ago.  At the tender age of 45, I was making an offer on my first house.  It's a cape cod in a blue collar neighborhood two blocks away from the high school.  It's in the shape of an L with a front facing gable to book end the long pitch.  The…

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• In My Dreams

  February 12, 2018

  My dreams are hardly coherent. They merge and bend from one scene to the next without making any sense. In some of my dreams I’m still in the Army. I have to go to formation but I can’t find my uniform. Or I’m missing gear before a deployment. I’m just never ready. In some of…

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• Relax

  February 10, 2018

  Never underestimate the power of a quiet ride through the country. Current listening: https://youtu.be/9AeYSBPGwBk

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• Facebook

  February 9, 2018

  All of what I did on the old open diary was mostly trash, so I'm happy not to recover it.  It was neat to just glimpse into other peoples lives.  The Editors choice insured reading interesting entries.  I was in awe and I taught me that I didn't have the imagination to write.  I don't…

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