Recent Entries

• The Disco-Rita Effect…

  May 8, 2018

  TRIGGER WARNING : This entry is full of graphic descriptions regarding Self Harm and Eating Disorders.     So...things have changed somewhat and I feel the need to do a whole big thing, like an op-ed to myself, and all of you about it. This academic year has been a complete mind-fuck; h...

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• The Way That She’s Whispering

  March 5, 2018

  So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

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• Dear Kit

  March 5, 2018

  It’s been a week. 7 whole days since you last slid relief across your thigh and watched your pain bleed in to the water. The urges have been there, but you’re finding ways to cope with them, to deal with them. The pain isn’t as bad as it was, you’re starting to process again and…

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• I Don’t Care If You Don’t Want Me…

  March 4, 2018

  So… Mundy and I are ~kind of~ back together. I told her I’m back in therapy. I didn’t tell her why. I will have to explain the leg in time no doubt. Off to a cracking start again then…thigh slashed up like Freddie Kreuger’s been let loose and only able to open up to Rita,…

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• Over My Head, Out Of Her Head…

  March 3, 2018

  So… Sometimes you need to take a long hard look at yourself, but it’s not always your true reflection that stares back at you. I so rarely see myself when I look in the mirror that I often wonder if the dysmorphia stemmed the mental health issues, or did the mental health issues create the…

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• The Way That She’s Whispering

  March 2, 2018

  So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

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• In The Day Everything’s Complex…

  March 1, 2018

  So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

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• I’ll Die Living Just As Free As My Hair…

  February 27, 2018

  So....   I started writing this before I went for my appointment, but things have changed so I scrubbed it and I’m starting again. Today was the day. Today I went back into therapy. Clinical Hypnotherapy & NLP to be precise. I won’t lie, I was an absolute mess this morning when I got up,...

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• Crystal Heart In The Graveyard…

  February 21, 2018

  “Crystal heart in the graveyard, I think it’s time for a new start...” Kailee Morgue (Unfortunate Soul)   So...   I didn’t go for coffee with Straight Girl. Instead I had a chat with Pip about what’s going on and how I’m struggling with the inside of my own head, and then I went and sat...

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