Loves to make things, body modding/grinding and create new worlds but rarely ever has time to do half of what she/it wants too .

She/It also have the bad habbit of writing Emo poetry and being a general mess I appologise for this. I try not to be a human wrecking ball but sometimes I can't help myself.

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Misadventurns part x of n

December 17, 2019
Tuesday, 17th December 2019 Dear Diary, So today was a successful chaos, chaos which turned out fine to the point i'm a lil manic Psychologist came to see me, she is going to refer me for DBT. She was kinda supposed to come on Thursday or least thats what I was told. I managed to…
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  • Monday, 16th December 2019
    December 16, 2019
    Monday, 16th December 2019 Dear Diary quiet day. played Warhammer Necromunda with Steve I won Tomorrow I have to head to Liverpool for occupational health appointment I have no idea what I'll say to them or anything. stressed about this. some days i'm okay then there's days like to today which i'...
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  • do not expect me to be Ok
    December 14, 2019
    UK election: wtf. I guess we now know how the US felt electing trump at least brexit was least part understandable... this just isn't a choice between someone who would try to make things better (key word try I am fully aware some of his promises were over optimistic) compared to a bigot and a&he...
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  • < human
    December 11, 2019
    Wednesday 11th December 2019 Dear Diary, There are days i feel like I deserve to be treated less than human today is one of those days. Psychologist couldn't come today fair enough. anxiety has been sky high since I woke up (not good enough, not good enough, failure etc.) tomorrow I have an appoi...
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  • broken computers
    December 10, 2019
    Tuesday 10th December 2019 Dear Diary, Stuff and things of today: Network br0ke the still unknown reasons. Got up really late and Rainbow text me asking if I wanted to meet in town I did through I was late due to trying to fix the network everything was failing to connect to the router urk.…
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  • Meandering Monday
    December 9, 2019
    Monday 9th December, 2019 Dear Diary, Today I successfully went for a blood test (at 9:40!) and rearranged my occupational health assessment. I went for a walk to, just my normal meander along the Mersey and up to the shops takes about an hour. I was so tired, actually I have been all day the&hel...
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  • Sunday 8th December
    December 8, 2019
    Sunday 8th December Dear Diary, Today was an OK day, we had the nurse come round to check on us she asserted that their is a backup plan should CMT not want to see me after my assessment on Friday im unsure if that im ill enough for them. I don't know we will find…
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  • best for me
    November 20, 2019
    We talked to mum today, fuck goddammit. :| dammit. She Wants Whats Best For Me. capitalized for effect, her idea of best, she needs to be in control she always does and we feel like we're fighting like always to be something other than in her control, some independent person or least independent ...
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  • anxiety fueled
    November 19, 2019
      💚 Anxiety is becoming more and more of an issue: I avoided going into work today for a support meeting to discuss a phased return. I will rearrange it for Thursday tomorrow... I'll do better or well I have to do better, (I'm also not supposed to be so harsh on myself either) Doctor…
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  • sheltered
    November 8, 2019
    Spent the past week in sheltered accommodation , it was actually really relaxing and quite good as a time out for everything, managed to get some of my thoughts in order. I said I'd try. try to continue. try to be better again Back home now *is overwhelmed flops in bed for the day* bleh…
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