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• 12

  September 27, 2022

  I just want to talk about my favorite songs right now, most of which are crywank, those include; A Deer Mistaking A Candle For Headlights. This song is about how James' (Crywank's) partner gaslights and verbally abuses him, this one is one that's part angry, self depricating, and part weak and ti...

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• Face

  September 26, 2022

  I have a resting bitch face, I can't fix that. I always have bags under my eyes, I just always look miserable unless I smile. I bet I'd have more friends if I just look a little more approachable, if I went to sleep earlier or if I didn't have this stupid fucking hair cut.…

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• 11

  September 26, 2022

  My life is in disarray, has it even started yet? I keep lying to myself, saying I don't hate, that I only love. I know the best version of myself but my emotions stop me from reaching them, I'm so angry all the time. I see myself as better than others, I know I'm not…

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• 10

  September 23, 2022

  I think I have a dream job, and if I get said dream job, I'd have my whole life planned out ahead of me. But I'd have to go to college, I never wanted to go to college before because I hate the idea of having to pay off student loans for the rest of…

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• 9

  September 22, 2022

  The foreign language graduation requirement is stupid, I have no idead how to start or carry a conversation in spanish. I hope spanish 2 goes by quickly so I can complain about history instead. I woke up a lot earlier than I usually do, like a good kind of waking up too. I was awake…

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• 8

  September 21, 2022

  I had a weird ass dream, I can remember most of it but the strangest thing about it was that every middle aged woman had watched the Netflix/DC show "Gotham". I finished it a week or two ago because it's getting taken off Netflix on the 29th, but I knew because I knew they knew…

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• A Timid Starvation

  September 20, 2022

  I want to be special, not famous or an important. I want to be of value to someone, I want to be special to someone. I want a purpose and belonging, I'm desperate for it. Even just a friend, a human being that I can talk to, someone that makes me feel like I can…

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• 7

  September 20, 2022

  Empathy can be unhealthy at times, it has taken from everyone who has succumb to it. It's not a bad thing, anyone can learn to stray away from it, but it has a hold on almost everyone, the mark of humanity. That would mean those lacking empathy are less human, right? A strong emotion that…

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• 6

  September 19, 2022

  I found that the best way of releasing anger is to hit things into other things and throwing things really far. Yelling has little to no relief unless paired with hitting things, I also found that hanging out with cats or dogs ease any negative emotion. There's a pair of stray kittens living on t...

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