Recent Entries

• Overthinking: My Own Worst Enemy

  December 3, 2024

  The title says it all. I’m my own worst enemy when it comes to getting inside my head and absolutely overthinking anything & everything. It’s so frustrating. You could say things with Tom have been going well. Thanks to my work schedule I had a ton of days off in a row from my second…

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• One Month of Dating or Whatevershipping Updates…..

  November 22, 2024

  I was so damn happy when I woke up yesterday. It’s amazing how quickly happiness can be shattered by a few simple words and the loss of someone amazing. *Sigh* - I was going to write a happy post tho. So I’m still going to try. I’m happy. I’m just sad too. But damn it…

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• Another Major Family Loss

  November 20, 2024

  I’m sad. So fucking sad. I had grand plans of writing an entry about how good things were going. However, the amazingness was shattered by a soul crushing loss of one of the most important people in my life. I’m broken. I hurt. I’m sad. I’m angry. You name it. I feel it. Kathy. Died.…

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• It’s the little things.

  November 11, 2024

  Found that quote scrolling and I loved it. There was a different quote a few weeks ago that I’d loved- Instead of continuing to ask a clown why he’s a clown, ask yourself why you keep going to the circus. So true, Max & I entirely. He’s a clown but I kept returning when he…

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• Upgrading to phone calls… I think.

  November 7, 2024

  Another day has came and went. It’s a struggle to focus quite often. To not obsess over stupid, little things. I seriously question how I functioned before being given Adderall. Did I ever get any work done? Without it, I’m often in left field seeing a squirrel and counting butterflies. It’s ridi...

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• I REALLY like him.

  November 5, 2024

  I like him. Like genuinely like him. Not just lust him. Not infatuated with him. Not obsessed with him just to have someone to distract me. Not hanging out with him because it’s better than being alone. No. None of that. Genuine like. Real interest. Legit catching feelings. I REALLY LIKE HIM. Thu...

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• 26 Years Ago…

  November 1, 2024

  SA Trigger Warning It amazes me the things our bodies hold on to. The fact we may not mentally remember, yet our nervous system and subconscious mind are holding on tightly. The remember. They activate at triggers… smells, tastes, feelings, dates. It’s been 26 years since that awful night. I don’...

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• Halloween, Upcoming Tattoo, Relationships

  October 31, 2024

  My work had a Halloween Costume party today - yes, I work remote 🤣 So I just wore my Owl Pajamas. Worked for me. Halloween has been a long day. Didn’t feel like working. Didn’t feel like passing out candy. Had a couple friends and their kids over to pass out candy. One is my…

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• Room, Romance, Mom, Therapy

  October 30, 2024

  Oh my gosh. I just realized how easily I could input pictures. It used to be way more complicated 20 years ago here. Having to upload them somewhere else then link it. I’m impressed. I have been working on my room lately. This gives you a glimpse of the bed, tapestry and pretty lights/diffuser. T...

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