Recent Entries

• Upgrading to phone calls… I think.

  November 7, 2024

  Another day has came and went. It’s a struggle to focus quite often. To not obsess over stupid, little things. I seriously question how I functioned before being given Adderall. Did I ever get any work done? Without it, I’m often in left field seeing a squirrel and counting butterflies. It’s ridi...

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• I REALLY like him.

  November 5, 2024

  I like him. Like genuinely like him. Not just lust him. Not infatuated with him. Not obsessed with him just to have someone to distract me. Not hanging out with him because it’s better than being alone. No. None of that. Genuine like. Real interest. Legit catching feelings. I REALLY LIKE HIM. Thu...

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• 26 Years Ago…

  November 1, 2024

  SA Trigger Warning It amazes me the things our bodies hold on to. The fact we may not mentally remember, yet our nervous system and subconscious mind are holding on tightly. The remember. They activate at triggers… smells, tastes, feelings, dates. It’s been 26 years since that awful night. I don’...

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• Halloween, Upcoming Tattoo, Relationships

  October 31, 2024

  My work had a Halloween Costume party today - yes, I work remote 🤣 So I just wore my Owl Pajamas. Worked for me. Halloween has been a long day. Didn’t feel like working. Didn’t feel like passing out candy. Had a couple friends and their kids over to pass out candy. One is my…

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• Room, Romance, Mom, Therapy

  October 30, 2024

  Oh my gosh. I just realized how easily I could input pictures. It used to be way more complicated 20 years ago here. Having to upload them somewhere else then link it. I’m impressed. I have been working on my room lately. This gives you a glimpse of the bed, tapestry and pretty lights/diffuser. T...

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• Weekend Adventures

  October 29, 2024

  The weekend was actually pretty nice. It would have been better if I didn’t have to work. However, that was fine too. I made it in fairly on time. Pretty steady flow of people but not too bad. Mostly decent customers. As I expected Cody worked. He showed up early and all in a hurry.…

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• A little bit of everything

  October 26, 2024

  It’s the end of the day. Would be the end of the week if I didn’t have two stupid jobs and need to work in the morning. Ugh. I should be sleeping but it always takes me awhile to even remotely be ready to fall asleep. How’d work go? Fine. Was it awkward? Slightly too…

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• My dating world…

  October 24, 2024

  Hi. It’s me. I’m the problem. It’s me. Well, maybe not all me. However, enough of it is me. I pick men that are emotionally unavailable or a walking red flag. Become instantly attached. Smother them with my sudden obsession. They, as typical unavailable men, run the fuck away. Repeat. That’s it i...

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• Dating Ramblings and Stupid Neighbors.

  October 20, 2024

  It’s Sunday already. For having nothing to do the weekend still goes by far too fast. Did I succeed on not texting Cody? Hell, no. Did he give me any good replies. Also, hell no. He replied a couple times but I need far more than what he’s giving. He went from apologizing when he…

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