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• “Lie Still, Sleep Becalmed”

  January 31, 2014

  This poem reminds me of this diary sinking.  I've had it memorized since I was 16.   "Lie Still, Sleep Becalmed" by Dylan Thomas. In case you're wondering, it's about a shipwreck and a scenario of everyone drowning. Though I guess most of us are using prosebox as a lifeboat.

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• First Kiss…*

  January 24, 2014

  I remember anniversaries of events very easily.  They just seem to stick to the inside of my head, without me being able to do anything about it.  Perhaps it has something to do with my incessant fixation with numbers, or perhaps my morbid vigilance of time passing by.  An advantag...

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• Tiger

  January 23, 2014

  His saliva smelled of whiskey tonight as he subjugated the inside and outside of my mouth with his own and all I could do was surrender.  Felt his hand slip adroitly under the ruffled front of my candy pink pajama bottoms and lipstick red panties and his palm press hard and flat against the ...

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• Alan Wake

  January 21, 2014

  A few of you may think it’s strange that I never followed up on that potential near-incident I had back in late August.  I suppose I just haven’t felt like talking about it.  I dealt with it, though.  I had to deal with it right away.  I remember waking up the foll...

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• The Ultimate Loneliness

  January 19, 2014

  One of the most exalted and touching compliments a person can receive is:   There is no one like you in the world.   I have been on both the giving and receiving ends of this a few times, and have meant it with genuine appreciation for one of my highest values-- uniqueness, and taken&he...

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• Firm Corporal Punishment

  January 15, 2014

  When it comes to lingerie choices, I like to straddle the divide between sweet and sexy.  I was excited to receive a package today from Victoria’s Secret with four little cotton and lace slips, all with stretchy white lace at the busts and hems, adjustable satin spaghetti straps, and t...

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• Veil

  January 14, 2014

  According to weatherscan, today's forecast is: Morning fog followed by afternoon sun. Somehow, that seems meaningful at this moment. Though, if I'm calm, I'm able to thoroughly enjoy haziness.  Not being able to see what's in front of me.  Pearliness like airy snow that never quite make...

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• Maddie & Clyde…

  January 13, 2014

  Attempting relaxation after a long stressful day with an episode of Thriller, Dialogues With Death, a burgundy sherpa-lined velour throw blanket, and a scoop of dark chocolate ice cream.     Since my little sister Maddie was a baby, I’ve always treated her like my little buddy. &n...

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• They both bring me to my knees…

  January 9, 2014

  I find such similarity between the words holy and wholly, and not just in lettering and sound.  In intensity of meaning, in connotated purity.   Absolute purity: perhaps the only ideal in which I see enough value to hold onto.  Pure hatred is just as sterling to me as pure love. &n...

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