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• 7/15/22 fri

  July 15, 2022

  So ive desided to try to do daily entrys about well my day. Maybe it will help me get out of this funk. Its more than that but thats what ima call it. Help me keep my days straight.... Got up at 315 am be4 G wakeup call. We didnt talk much today of course…

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• What happened

  May 19, 2022

  i woke up this morning to go work another 15 hr shift thinking it wasn't going to suck anymore than usual. It stared with loosing my key ring with car, apartment keys and fob. Then j. Pulls up to the store as im leaving, thats should have told me right there that my life was…

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• Wtf send this

  May 14, 2022

  Wtf im do confused. Why you you send a chic the song lyric "she has me like a Pisces when im weak" i slept with him once and hes barely talked to me since. why send that now. Its not like i rejected him its the other way around

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• Whats wrong with me

  May 11, 2022

  On one hand at don't want a relationship. I dont need someone to come into my life and get in the way of what im trying to do. Or bitch about how much i work. On the i miss the felling of knowing that theres someone on this planet that knows the real me and…

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• Thoughts

  April 21, 2022

  I havent really tried to organize my thoughts as i write them here. My brain seems so fogged sometimes it like i cant even organize them in my head. Like im in a fog. It hurt that none of the ppl i actually have contact with didnt say happy birthday. It hurts that b hasnt…

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• Why

  April 18, 2022

  Its still the same with S. He texts love you every once in awhile. Nut otherwise nothing again so ive desided since hes keeps going hot cold on me ill just keep it cold. Hes on fb all 5he time so hes just choosing to not say hi. I actually went on a date. he…

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• Teenage love return

  April 6, 2022

  Dear ---- What is there real reason.ya it romantic to think that what you say is real but noone stays in love with someone threw 25 years of no contact. What do you get out of this we live too far apart for physical contact, you know im broke, there is nothing hi can do…

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• Why

  March 21, 2022

  Nothing feels real anymore. I want a life. I want to love crazily again have that closeness again, that fire but I'm only attracted to guys that are bad for me. Being damaged I don't have the confidence to go for normal. I don't want normal I'm no a normal person. I ask for to…

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• Questions

  March 1, 2022

  Why would a guy I was very close with when I was a teen and my mom was sick message me after not seeing each other for almost 30 yrs just to tell me he's loved me his whole life and then for the rest of it talk to me like I'm scum not once…

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