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• Day 141

  August 26, 2020

  I found out today that "sister-cousin" was arrested last week, again, for theft. The state I live in has open records, so I was able to see that she is also being charged with resisting arrest. Thats 2 class A Misdemeanors. I feel terribly conflicted. I want her to face consequences that might ul...

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• Day 137

  August 19, 2020

  My dreams have been CRAZY since about May or June. Every night. I'm not sure what exactly is causing it, I'm not taking any new medication and they're not about the same thing. They mostly just revolve around feelings of anxiety. I don't feel rested in the mornings and it takes me a few hours&hel...

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• Day: 126 pt 2

  August 7, 2020

  I think I've been ruminating on the past more because there was a more recent incident. About a year and a half ago, one of my cousins, an older daughter of my owi aunt, asked my mom if she could stay with her for a few weeks. A few weeks turned into over a year.…

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• Day 126 pt. 1

  August 7, 2020

  I've been processing a lot of family related emotions, lately. I have one brother but 9 aunts and uncles and like 95 cousins. They've never really liked me. I was overweight and gothy, as a teenager. I self harmed and smoked pot. I didn't fit into their upper-middle class vision. I still don't. N...

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• Day 122

  August 3, 2020

  I've left the house maybe 10x's since March 3rd. I wouldn't call it social distancing, I'm more like socially isolating. I've tried connecting with people through apps like reddit and bumble; but its been hard to make friends when everyone else wants to meet in person. I'm anxious about covid but...

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