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• oh I’m going crazy

  February 28, 2018

  I don’t feel well today. I’m just laying in bed with my baby which is my dog who is stealing my blankets. this week has been hard mentally I’m not going to even pretend it hasn’t been. I have had one meal since last Tuesday which was a salad on Saturday which I threw up.…

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• Fears of writing

  February 28, 2018

  I wanted to write a few things that have been on my mind about this diary. Some thoughts and explanations because I plan to share everything the good the bad and the ugly. First I feared about writing about being a parent with an addiction and an eating disorder. I don’t fear this not because&hel...

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• My crazy house

  February 27, 2018

  A drink cannot come early enough today. My house hold is always chaotic. Isn’t everybody’s? The dynamic of my house consists of myself and my husband my mother a 13 year old son and two 11 year old girls. One of the girls is autistic and the 13 year old is although they have different…

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• Overwhelming

  February 27, 2018

  Last night sleep did not want to come and I suddenly couldn’t stop thinking of everything I need to get done. First I need to shop for my daughters birthday which is the day before I leave. Second I need to clothes shop which I hate I just recently had to say goodbye to my…

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• How I got here PT 2

  February 27, 2018

  So I did not do much research on the place I was going to. I asked a few questions but not enough mostly because I didn't know what to ask. I had excellent insurance and I had met my out of pocket from all the hospital stays so I could have gone anywhere that took…

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• How I got here…PT 1

  February 26, 2018

  I want to move on. I want to make this Journal about the present and the future. I spend all my time running away from the memories but I feel like until I just write it down maybe I can move forward. This is going to take a long time and I am going to…

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• My new journa

  February 26, 2018

  This Journal is about living my life with an eating disorder. There are a few reasons I am writing it for one it’s hard to live with something  as significant in my life and not talk about it. The second reason is probably the one that’s nearest to my heart I have often felt alone…

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