"Most importantly, understand that you will survive if you face it. Celebrate the relationship that you hold dear to you, enjoy them whilst you may, and live in the knowledge that sharing love is one of the most precious gives we have."- author unknown

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Letting go and letting god

September 3, 2019
so very hard to do! I had a plan... years ago to move to the country to be close to my family. My mom moved there after retirement and her battle with breast cancer. I moved to the big city just after her diagnosis. She begged me to go and make something for my life.…
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    August 24, 2019
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  • Insufficient…
    August 20, 2019
    I don't even know where to start on today's journal entry. I am all over the place emotionally.... and am suffering from low self-worth at the moment, coupled with mommy issues...oh joy. I guess the obvious place to start is what set off my emotions today. I have been suffering with chronic and c...
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    August 15, 2019
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    August 14, 2019
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  • Numb
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    I can't feel anything right now, nothing but the pain of my heart shattered into a million pieces.  I have tried, lord I have tried... but I am done. I have no hope. I have no reason, no purpose. And now I find that I don't know what to do.  I just want to grieve.…
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  • been looking at it all wrong
    November 5, 2010
    It's all about perception. I realized today that I have been looking at love and relationships the wrong way. Not wanting to let go of the past. Wishing for something to be different. I didn't want to see that it was me. The pain we carry when we loose someone is because we don't want…
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  • Forgiveness
    July 7, 2010
    I forgive you. I release you. I let you go from my heart. I set you free. You have no further claim upon my soul. These are the words provided through the Chopra meditation on letting go of pain. It is a guided mediation in which you visualize the person you are unable to forgive.…
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  • that kinda hurts
    June 19, 2010
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